Part VIII

I just want to cry! Spanish is breaking me, my schedule is breaking me. I don't understand. Senora is pissed, every thing is going wrong. Hear my cires, hear my prayers and pleas. Words were said and can't be taken back, I understand that. I can't take it any more. I don't know what to do or where to turn today. I need a break. Two days, I want to survive, I really do, but this stress, it's antaganizing me like no other. Those thatare leaving are getting angry. I used to enjoy their classes, but not any more. They are making me sink lower. It's not right, nothing seems like the right choice any more. I wasnt to crawl into my corner, curl up in a ball, burry myself, and cry myself and my problems away. I want to be strong for all of you, but I don't know if I can. I feel segragated from my true life. I feel like I have an alternate personality. I need time to think and figure all this crap out. I'm falling, falling hard for you. Give me a sing please! And you missy! I'm sick of you. Thank the Lord we are almost to the end. I never want to see you again! I don't know how you do it or even why, but you get under my skin. I'm done, I'm through with you. I'm not going to deal with it anymore. I'm done, i'm through; I don't want to hear any more out of you!

Part VII

English today provided me with a very eye opeaning expirence and though provoking 55 minutes. We have just finished reading the book fahrenheit 451. Our assignment was to bring in an object that we "have touched." Now this just wasnt something that you have held in your hand, you actualy had to think about it; something that you have left an impression on or that you want to be remembered for. Now this is easier than it sounds. When I really thought about it there were MANY choices. When I started thinking about it there is so much that I have done. Being a leader in Girl Scouts in my community, 30-40 girls look up to me. Being a camp counselor last summer 800-900 girls. Iowa FCCLA State Officer: nearly 3,000 members, hunderds of state officers from around the country, and 7 very close SEC members. Sheltered Reality Top of Iowa site kids, I'm so proud of all they have accomplished! These are just organizations. This isn't counting my school, my community, my church, or even my own friends. Think about it. What is something that you want to be remembered for? Is there someone who you have changed their lives? I hope so. What object would you bring in if you had this assignment?Now this assignment was two-fold. We also had to write about a mentour or very influencial person in our lives. There were so many people to choose from! I couldn't choose just one so I wrote about two. There have been so many people who have changed me. Wether through Girl Scouts, FCCLA, Sheltered Reality, Golf, Volleyball, school, speech, church, youth group, ect. Who has shaped your life? How? When? Why? Do you know? It is most definatly a very thought provoking question to answer. Chew on this for a while. A worksheet today said T.V. is like chewing gum for today's youth...but let this be your chewing gum today.