Why is it that it is easy to talk to aperson in one form about a topic but not in another form? I'm talking completly technicologicaly here. Why can I text my closest friend about a difficult subject, but I can't bring myself to click send in an email to her about the same thing? Does that make me pathetic? I can't send an email to two people, and yet I can have a complete conversation on myspace mail with someone else about it. I don't consider myself a coward, I just don't know whats stopping me. They are not going to judge me for messing up, and I know this. I've been told that hundreds of times! Am I making life more difficult not on for me, but for her as well? She knows whats going on but not fully. They know my story, at times I think they know me better than I do.
I cried in church today, I'm not one to cry all that often. It's because of this, I'm torn and don't exactly know what to do with myself anymore. Life is changing and there is no doubt about that. Senior year is just around the corner. Uncertianties are alwyas there, but I normaly overcome them.I have put it off way to long! I should have pressed send a week and a half ago. Why didn't I????
That seems to always be the question...
Why?
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